I Got Nuthin

     I love to talk - I do - but lately I have no words. I'm not sure I even could come up with thoughts enough to connect any words together.  Maybe God has shut me up, I don't know, maybe He's just waiting to give me a huge revelation.

     I hope someone in this meantime doesn't come to me for wisdom or advice or counsel and I stare back at them blankly and can't even utter the words "I got nuthin", because I would never want to let anyone down.

     So I wait......God has put that word in my heart this year.......wait. I wish I knew what I was waiting for, but I don't. I want Him to do some specific things that only He can do, but I wait.
I wait for a Word and hope I'm being still enough to listen. I wait for things to change and see only sameness.

     But.......I have enough hope and enough patience to do this wait because of God. I trust His promises to bring about His perfect will - for my good and His glory. Will it be soon? I wish. Will I know? I have that hope. Many Psalms have this wait word, it's quite biblical; but I admit, it is hard sometimes. Harder than babbling. Harder than DOING something. Harder than patience.

     I am content here for now, trusting, being brave, resting from brain turmoils. Waiting, with nuthin to give............yet.

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